There are several quotes which can pretty accurately describe the state of me right now.
They are:

"In this life I'm stubborn to the core/In this life I've been burning after more/We both know what these open arms are for..." - from the song "Head Over Heels" by Switchfoot.

"Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done." - C. S. Lewis.

Especially the last one. But truly both of them, because I am really stubborn..in a certain way. Which may not make sense to you, dear blog-reader....but it does to me....I go on stuck in my ways, with my ideas, all the while God's like, you know, this would probably be better...yet I still insist on my way...
Umm basically this lyric sums it up: "a thousand times I've failed, still Your mercy remains, should I stumble again, I'm caught in Your grace.." - from "From the Inside Out" by Hillsong United.
I just feel like I'm stuck in the "thousand-times" part. haha. if that makes sense. but then I read the Lewis quote up there & I'm like oh yeah, it's a day to day thing. Which, IT IS.
TRUSTING GOD TRULY IS A DAY-TO-DAY THING.
And I'm still learning it.