Psalm 139 and I gave in.

Last night at campus church, Ben Gutierrez spoke on Psalm 139 and how God knows us best. I've never heard it preached on like this before. It was really awesome, so I shall share it with you:)
Psalm 139 --
1 O LORD, you have searched me and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise; you perceive my thoughts from afar.
3 You discern my going out and my lying down; you are familiar with all my ways.
4 Before a word is on my tongue you know it completely, O LORD.
5 You hem me in—behind and before; you have laid your hand upon me.
6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me, too lofty for me to attain.
7 Where can I go from your Spirit? Where can I flee from your presence?
8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there; if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.
9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea,
10 even there your hand will guide me, your right hand will hold me fast.
11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me and the light become night around me,"
12 even the darkness will not be dark to you; the night will shine like the day, for darkness is as light to you.
13 For you created my inmost being; you knit me together in my mother's womb.
14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
15 My frame was not hidden from you when I was made in the secret place. When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,
16 your eyes saw my unformed body. All the days ordained for me were written in your book before one of them came to be.
17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them!
18 Were I to count them, they would outnumber the grains of sand. When I awake, I am still with you.
19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God! Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!
20 They speak of you with evil intent; your adversaries misuse your name.
21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD, and abhor those who rise up against you?
22 I have nothing but hatred for them; I count them my enemies.
23 Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.
24 See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting.

In the verses in purple [1-6], there are 9 words which denote knowledge, showing how well God knows us.
In the verses in yellow [7-12], there are 8 words which denote geography, showing that no matter where on this earth we try to go, God is already there.
In the verses in this brownish-red [13-16], there are 8 words which denote power, showing that God is omnicient, or all-powerful. He made each and every one of us, and He loves us more than we know.
In the rest of the verses [17-22], David is expressing his gratitude for the love of God. He is so grateful that it angers him that people are against God and he wants to do what he can to get rid of them and show them the truth.
Verses 23-24 repeat the first verse. David already knows that God knows him better than anyone else, including himself. So why is he asking God to search him if he already knows that God knows him? David asks this to show that he is willing to have God search him and know him, even to show the shameful parts of him.
It was good and refreshing to hear this sermon last night. I think it'll be one that I'll remember for a really long time. :)
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To explain the other half of the title of this post, I gave in and started up an account with Tumblr. I'll probably post more on there than here...but maybe not. Haha we'll see how it goes. Here's the link: www.twirlingleaves.tumblr.com
& that's all fo now :)

There are several quotes which can pretty accurately describe the state of me right now.
They are:

"In this life I'm stubborn to the core/In this life I've been burning after more/We both know what these open arms are for..." - from the song "Head Over Heels" by Switchfoot.

"Relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing had yet been done." - C. S. Lewis.

Especially the last one. But truly both of them, because I am really stubborn..in a certain way. Which may not make sense to you, dear blog-reader....but it does to me....I go on stuck in my ways, with my ideas, all the while God's like, you know, this would probably be better...yet I still insist on my way...
Umm basically this lyric sums it up: "a thousand times I've failed, still Your mercy remains, should I stumble again, I'm caught in Your grace.." - from "From the Inside Out" by Hillsong United.
I just feel like I'm stuck in the "thousand-times" part. haha. if that makes sense. but then I read the Lewis quote up there & I'm like oh yeah, it's a day to day thing. Which, IT IS.
TRUSTING GOD TRULY IS A DAY-TO-DAY THING.
And I'm still learning it.

can't think of a good title...

So I'm sitting on the end of my bed, with my feet on my desk, and my window open to my left. It is a grand 62 degrees outside, and there is a lovely breeze. I just came in from a walk. the breese is rustling the trees and their leaves outside, literally right outside my window. It is nice to listen to. There are dark periwinkle colored clouds in the sky above, looming with the possibility of rain. I can also hear crickets. What a lovely thing, open windows and the change of the seasons.

Again this weekend, God allowed me to see how incredibly human I am, and also how blessed I am with people around me that show me His love.

Just 10 days til I go home for fall break, ohhh how I can't wait. Even though there is sooo much school work that has to be accomplished before then....with my Father's help I can do it. :)